Where has time gone!?

 

Time is going too fast, please slow down!!

Hello! I know I disappeared after my last post in April, but I promise I'm fine! 😊 I just had a lot going on personally, each day has been an adventure. Mostly dealing with mental health issues! From April onwards it's been super busy with a somewhat better summer 😊 

Recently I've started new online courses & it hasn't hit me yet that I'm actually doing them, but for now I'm enjoying every single course! 

I hope to update frequently! Next update will be on World Mental Health Day 

Life, craziness & celebration...

It's been a rollercoaster for the past few weeks but I'm back! Life has really got me down & I need a new hobby. In the meantime I'll keep blogging 😊

Whilst I was going through the craziness of life filled with mental health issues I managed to graduate from university at the end of last month! ❤

Alhumdulilah I have officially completed my BA Education Studies degree today!! It feels surreal, but after so many obstacles I've finally reached the finish line. It's been a crazy rollercoaster over the last four years & I've been through many ups & downs. But I kept going. Looking back I'm glad because I'm extremely proud of all that I've achieved over the last four years ❤❤

My sincere thank you goes to all the professors I had pleasure of meeting & working with. My amazing friends & family who supported me with encouragement over the years!! ❤❤

Alhumdulilah! My dissertation project is completed!! ❤❤

When I chose to do dissertation I was dreading it thinking it'll be too long (it was). But I enjoyed every minute of it. Attending the workshops, meetings with my supervisor & collaborating ideas with other student. It was a fun & life changing experience. 

Not saying it was easy, definitely not but that's ok, I preferred the challenge & loved working on a topic that I'm passionate about ❤

Thank you to my supervisor, other professors, family & friends for your unbelievable support & encouragement throughout the whole experience! ❤❤

Gosh, even after nearly month of submitting everything & finishing university as an undergraduate it still hasn't dawned on me...Maybe writing is what I need 🤔

Not promising regular entries, but from now on I'll post when I can! 😃

New year, New start...Sort of

Back! 

Apologies for the silence but since New year's day I've been feeling rubbish & not in the mood to do anything. Think my mental & emotional state started to impact me physically & I've been drifting, not the best feeling 😭

Thankfully during the craziness I managed to officially submit 3 final assignments & looking back I'm relieved. They weren't easy to do, despite the reduced word count, but I still completed them to the best of my ability. I'm proud of my work 😊😊

Now I'm aiming to smash my dissertation 😀

The photo of the recent book I've finished today which oddly enough took me a month to read 😂

Been a while!

Since last post I was dealing with a quite a lot & mentally was all over the place...So I needed some time for myself 

Also working on various assignments at once kept me occupied! 3 done, 1 to go. Dissertation, the big one I call it! 

I will be posting as normal from today ! 

Smile

I'm back! So sorry for the long unexpected break but I was going personal stuff. Since my last update I've been productive with my research report which is a nightmare to write because despite doing essays for a long time now, I dislike literature review. It's long & frustrating! OK, ok...Apologies for my rant, have a lot going on lately & I've come to a conclusion that lockdown is not helping my mental health...😔

Daily Motivation 

Smile! Its beautiful & brightens my day. I'm always smiling. Every day, no matter what I'm doing or how bad things are. For me there's a always a reason to smile, I just have to find it & I usually do. By doing what I love & being around those whom I love. My smile gets me through even the toughest of times & I always hold onto one reason; bad times don't last forever, better days are around the corner! I'll carry on smiling 😊❤

Smile! Spread happiness & joy. Smile even without any reason! Be happy 😊 ❤

Patience

Finding that determination to work on assignments since the lockdown has been difficult to say the least. Let's see how I do in the next few weeks...

Daily Motivation 

I thought my patience was tested over the last few years since my 3rd year at college. Since the time I had to deal with health challenges as well as academic life. Balancing the two has never been easy, but eventually I found a rhythm. However this year was a massive challenge in itself with the lockdown, health issues & trying to finish my degree. I may be a patient person as over the years I had learn to be patient (not easy!). But my patience continues to be tested since the beginning of this pandemic & what got me through the whole ordeal is that patience is not the ability to wait but how I act while I'm waiting! I adapted a new routine, gave myself a chance to focus on my health & explore my mental health issues further. Read from my booklist & just keep myself busy, to not dwell on the negatives. I learned to be patient, to just breathe! 

Life is chaotic, now more than ever. Remember to breathe. Take a moment for yourself & just be patient! Better days are coming 🙂

Grief

Spent the day out today. It was nerve racking since I had gone out after a long time. I was anxious & worried. Thankfully I had my music to help me. Its a good source of distraction 

Daily Motivation 

I have lost people. Some whom I knew & some who I didnt't. Nonetheless the feeling is the same, maybe a tad different for those people I was close to. But do you know what, I don't think grief should have a time limit. The people who think there's a limit time for grief, have never lost a piece of their heart. Take all the time you need! 

Grief doesn't have a time limit & it never should! 

Best Friends!

 

Anxiety

Anxiety.... Something which is difficult for me to control, especially these days. It's not easy & there's only so many distractions I can find at home. I'm more of an outdoor person, so staying at home is not for me...Slow adjustments. At least I found various ways to control my anxiety, a breathing technique helps. Try it, makes all the difference

Daily Motivation 

For years I was target of bullying, never really having real friends. Finding it extremely difficult to connect to others my age. Funnily enough during my time at secondary school I preferred to be around teachers than my own classmates. Strange right? But I felt safe with them I guess. It was either that or I'd hide in the library throughout my 5 years at school. Gradually, I learned to connect with people. At the end of my time at secondary school I made one true friend, whom today I see as my best friend, my sister. Flash-forward to college & I met two other incredible, special, amazing friends who today are my best friends. Those three girls have seen me at my best & at my worst. Yet, they never left my side. They loved me for who I am, a loud, crazy & often childish person. When I'm with my best friends I'm free to be myself without having the fear of being judged. Those three taught me to be myself, to love & most importantly to not let others judgement change who I am. Each of the girls have changed my life & have seen me through my darkest side, yet never left my side! My best friends made the good times better filled with laughter & jokes. They also made the hard times easier by listening to me, lending me a shoulder to cry & most importantly by reminding me of how far I've gotten! I never have or will take my friends for granted. I'll them support whenever they need it, offer advice, go on outings & make memories that last forever! Thank you girls for giving me a chance to be me & for putting up with me! 😂😘💜

People come & go in your life, but your best friends will never dessert you! They become family 

Rough Days...

Weekend Fun or laziness

Thank goodness the week is over! Felt like the longest week ever, I hate being sick... At least a read a phenomenal book & learned a few things. It was interesting & I would recommend it, its called The Secret Teacher

Daily Motivation 

Rough mornings are part of me (most of the time). Over the years my health has become unpredictable which also impacts my mental health too. So, there are days when I have roughs morning or don't feel like getting out of bed. On those days I place my hand over my heart & feel it. I realise I have purpose & won't give up! That I'm alive for a reason! I may have rough mornings but I give myself a choice either to let my mental health control me or I overcome my fears & get on with the day. I always try for the option. Giving up is not in my books & never will be! 

You're allowed to have rough mornings, but you also have a choice. Either let that ruin your whole day or choose to focus on your purpose, goals & dreams!