Where has time gone!?

 

Time is going too fast, please slow down!!

Hello! I know I disappeared after my last post in April, but I promise I'm fine! 😊 I just had a lot going on personally, each day has been an adventure. Mostly dealing with mental health issues! From April onwards it's been super busy with a somewhat better summer 😊 

Recently I've started new online courses & it hasn't hit me yet that I'm actually doing them, but for now I'm enjoying every single course! 

I hope to update frequently! Next update will be on World Mental Health Day 

Birthday Post!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! 🎂🥳 

I still feel I'm 24 even though today I'm 2️⃣5️⃣! 🥳

Birthday's will always be special to me & thinking about everything I still can't believe I'm 2️⃣5️⃣ today! 

The past year has been a challenging one in many ways

Mental & emotional challenges have been difficult to deal but I have & now I'm in a better place 😃

Health wise it's been a year of new discoveries 🙂

My biggest achievement has been graduating from university & completing my degree with amazing results! I'm still stunned but immensely proud of myself 😀

From a baby to a young women

From Pakistan to London 

From struggling in school to a University College London graduate 

25 years I've spent going from hospital to hospital. Having a number of operations. Being prescribed endless medication & going for non stop tests. I'm a survivor! 🙂

Today I'm thanking & giving a massive shout out to the wonderful, phenomenal people in my life. My amazing family for their unconditional love, support & laughs ❤

My phenomenal friends who are my rock through the good & bad, the light & dark. Thank you girls for your unbelievable support, love, laughs, jokes & memories. Most of all thank you for putting up with me! ❤

My teachers & professors who are incredible superheroes. Thank you for your constant support & advise. For your unbelievable belief in me!

A new chapter awaits me! 🥳🥳

I'm not perfect & I don't believe in perfection. I'm imperfect, I make mistakes, mess up, have many fears & insecurities. Nonetheless, there's another side to me which people are so used to; the funny, crazy, bonkers & a happy go person. Who laughs at random things, just laughs & smiles 24/7. A book nerd, a caring & loving person. Age for me is just a number & I won't change for anyone, so thank you to those who put up with me & never fail to cheer me up! Thank you for brightening up my life! ❤❤🥰🥰

Memories

Memories are precious, so they should be treasured 

If I ever get asked to write something about myself, often I don't know where to begin

My life is filled with so much, adventures, laughter, happiness, joy, sadness, rough & dark days. But I would never change that for anything 

I've been through many many challenges & obstacles physically, mentally & emotionally, a lot of which are still ongoing. The list of my needs & health conditions is extensive. I loose track of them myself & it just keeps growing 😂

I've had moments were giving up would be easier, but I kept fighting. For myself, my family & my friends 

Over the 24 years I've met incredible people from my friends who became family & whom I love unconditionally ❤❤

To the phenomenal teachers & professors at school, college & university. Each them taught me lessons I'll never forget & they shaped me into who I am with their constant advise & guidance ❤❤

Over the 24 years I've made phenomenal memories, I'm blessed to be who I am today & I won't change for anyone. Yes, I am bookish, a nerd & imperfect! I laugh endlessly at random things, I often act like a child & I may be weird, so what? I'm perfectly happy as I am! ❤

Time Flies...

Hello everyone! I'm back!! Yay, feels like forever since my last update, have to say this whole month has been a rollercoaster of everything at once. Exhausting! 

Slowly but surely I'm getting better (or at least dealing with everything a lot better) 

Lockdown hasn't been easy for me & I'm actually relieved that I go out again! Started reading, but actually I've just been extremely lazy...

Time does fly, feels like yesterday I was getting ready to celebrate my 24th birthday in lockdown...A year a later its the same story 😂 A lot has happened the past year. I'll be 25 tomorrow & from now on I'll put myself & my wellbeing first, everything else can wait ❤

Anyways, I hope to update more often 

Graduate!!! I'VE DONE IT!!

1st April 2021: Official graduate from University College London with a Bachelors of Art degree in Education Studies!!

University College London 2016- 2021

Going to university was a dream, a dream that became reality. I never imagined that I'd be a graduate from university, let alone from UCL. It's been an honour & privilege to have studied at UCL for 4 years.

Each year was challenging, but exciting. Each year I met wonderful people from my classmates to professors. I loved attending every single lecture & seminar classes.

Each year I grew as an individual. When I started I was shy & felt out of place. But that changed in my final year. I was part of an amazing community. I belonged & felt privileged to have been part of a life changing experience.

I loved every second of my degree, I thoroughly loved walking around the campus & exploring the libraries. There's so much that I loved, I can't even put it into words.

I loved meeting new classmates each year & working as a transition mentor or student rep gave me an opportunity to build my confidence. Some of those classmates are now my friends for life. I've learned a lot from my peers just as much as I learned from attending the lectures or seminars.

Meeting new professors each year was as exciting as meeting my peers. I've thoroughly loved talking to all my professors. I've learned so much from them & each them inspired me & taught me lessons I'll never forget, they believed in me & kept pushing me to aim higher. Because of their constant support & encouragement I kept progressing each year. 

Being in education since secondary school has been a ride. I've had bad moments & many many proud moments. I've faced numerous challenges each year. I've been bullied, discriminated & judged. I've even considered dropping out & yes that thought crossed my mind even at university. But I carried on...I kept going.

My sincere thank you goes out to so many people. From my family to friends & teachers!

Thank you to my parents & brothers for your constant support & love (even if some of it was discouraging 😂) ❤

Thank you to my amazing friends from secondary to university who kept me sane even when I was going mad. My friends made me laugh & kept pushing me, believing in me & reminding me constantly why i was doing this. My friends have been my rock throughout my education experience, especially the last four years! Thank you doesn't even cover it! But a massive thank you to each of them for cheering me up in their own way & making every day brighter ❤

My educational experience just wouldn't be the same without the teachers I've had the privilege of meeting since secondary school. Each of them have believed in me, supported me constantly academically & personally, pushed me beyond my capabilities & taught me lessons that I'll never forget. Each teacher inspired me. I always thought teachers & professors are superheroes.
Thank you isn't enough for them! ❤ I'm so so grateful & honoured to have known every single teacher & professor. You've all changed my life ❤

Now I'm a graduate with a second class honours degree in BA Education Studies...

Impressive right!? I'm proud, lost for words, honoured & so grateful for the amazing, phenomenal & thrilling 4 years at UCL. It's been a wild ride! ❤❤

Happy World Book Day 2021

Happy World Book Day!! 

I think it should be world book day every day. It'll be more fun & interactive! 

I've always loved reading, ever since I was child I'd carry a book with me & many years later that hasn't changed

Reading has always always been a massive part of my life, whether it was just looking at picture books or learning English from children stories. Each time I read I remember the times I used as a means of escape. 

Books are my escape from reality, this was particularly helpful during my time at secondary school where I spent more or less all my time at the library...I read every single book & fell in love with some amazing stories. 

I'll never be able to choose a favourite book, but I do have a favourite story: Harry Potter! 

Life, craziness & celebration...

It's been a rollercoaster for the past few weeks but I'm back! Life has really got me down & I need a new hobby. In the meantime I'll keep blogging 😊

Whilst I was going through the craziness of life filled with mental health issues I managed to graduate from university at the end of last month! ❤

Alhumdulilah I have officially completed my BA Education Studies degree today!! It feels surreal, but after so many obstacles I've finally reached the finish line. It's been a crazy rollercoaster over the last four years & I've been through many ups & downs. But I kept going. Looking back I'm glad because I'm extremely proud of all that I've achieved over the last four years ❤❤

My sincere thank you goes to all the professors I had pleasure of meeting & working with. My amazing friends & family who supported me with encouragement over the years!! ❤❤

Alhumdulilah! My dissertation project is completed!! ❤❤

When I chose to do dissertation I was dreading it thinking it'll be too long (it was). But I enjoyed every minute of it. Attending the workshops, meetings with my supervisor & collaborating ideas with other student. It was a fun & life changing experience. 

Not saying it was easy, definitely not but that's ok, I preferred the challenge & loved working on a topic that I'm passionate about ❤

Thank you to my supervisor, other professors, family & friends for your unbelievable support & encouragement throughout the whole experience! ❤❤

Gosh, even after nearly month of submitting everything & finishing university as an undergraduate it still hasn't dawned on me...Maybe writing is what I need 🤔

Not promising regular entries, but from now on I'll post when I can! 😃

New year, New start...Sort of

Back! 

Apologies for the silence but since New year's day I've been feeling rubbish & not in the mood to do anything. Think my mental & emotional state started to impact me physically & I've been drifting, not the best feeling 😭

Thankfully during the craziness I managed to officially submit 3 final assignments & looking back I'm relieved. They weren't easy to do, despite the reduced word count, but I still completed them to the best of my ability. I'm proud of my work 😊😊

Now I'm aiming to smash my dissertation 😀

The photo of the recent book I've finished today which oddly enough took me a month to read 😂

Happy New Year!! Welcome 2021!

 

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! 

Where has 2020 Gone...?

I thought 2019 was challenging! This year has been a rollercoaster...

With agonising toothache for the first few months, it was unbearable & made it extremely difficult to get through my final term at university. And of course the never-ending hospital appointments...Thankfully I managed to avoid a few this year (phew)

March 2020: I had completed my learning at university

May 2020: completed CBT therapy

This year I was supposed to graduate, but ended up deferring my studies again...Guess, everything happens for a reason. I will however graduate beginning of 2021!

Not sure what the highlight for this year would be, as it was mostly spent in lockdown, which has been extremely challenging emotionally & mentally. But one the main highlight for me is coping with my mental health

This year was mentally & emotionally challenging in more than one way & on occasions physically. Looking back on 2020, I don't think I could've gotten through each day without the incredible support from my phenomenal friends, amazing family & incredible teachers. Thank you doesn't seem enough!

2021 is a brand new year, let's make it a year of changes & kindness! Happy New Year!! 💗💗

Been a while!

Since last post I was dealing with a quite a lot & mentally was all over the place...So I needed some time for myself 

Also working on various assignments at once kept me occupied! 3 done, 1 to go. Dissertation, the big one I call it! 

I will be posting as normal from today ! 

Doctor Who Anniversary!

Happy Birthday Doctor Who! Here’s to 57 more years of adventure across Time & Space 🎂🎉❤️

My introduction to Doctor Who universe was through the spin off series 'The Sarah Jane Adventures' Starring Elisabeth Sladen as Sarah Jane Smith. I was around 12 or 13, it was phenomenal! I fell in love with Sci-Fi because of The Sarah Jane Adventure, Doctor Who & Torchwood! I loved watching Doctor Who & I still do even today. It's a great show! Part of me wishes I could be the Doctor's companion or whizz around in the TARDIS! Its been 57 years of amazing, terrifying & brilliant adventures across the galaxy, can't wait for more. I love all 13 Doctors & all the companions were phenomenal. But my favourite Doctor would be 4th Doctor (Tom baker) & companion Sarah Jane Smith (Elisabeth Sladen) 

I'm spending my day watching Doctor who videos. Anyone else?

Happy Birthday again Doctor Who! 

Reflection

End of a crazy week, honestly it has been one bizarre week. Although now I'm bored & spending my time watching random videos online. I need motivation to start on assignments again 😂

Daily Motivation 

All my life I've been bullied, judged & discriminated because of my health needs. Labeled as 'disabled,' been told I won't achieve much. I've lost count of how many times during my secondary school years or college that I wanted to quit & if I was to say that it hasn't had any longer effect than it's a lie. Because mentally I've suffered because of all the trauma I went through. It took me a while to realise that how other people me is a direct reflection of how they feel about themselves. I've learned to ignore the taunts, walked away from the bullies & kept going to prove people wrong. I'm not doing anything wrong, I'm living my life & doing everything that I love. Go ahead & judge me, I couldn't care less! 

Stop paying attention to those who constantly put you down, they're treatment is a reflection of how they see themselves ❤

Good Thoughts

This week started with appointments (again). With a messed up laptop, there's not much I can do. So I've been using my time listening to audiobooks. Have a pretty awesome selection 🙂

Daily Motivation 

I'm a positive person, always happy & smiling. More than often I have good thoughts or I try to anyway. Whenever I'm around people I let go of all the negative thoughts because I'm aware that if I have good thoughts they will shine out of my face like sunbeams & I will always look lovely! Good thoughts are easier to explain & I can smile through the day without pretending 🙂 

Always good thoughts! They will shine on your face & you'll look lovely ❤