I'm not perfect... But I'm always myself
Don't judge me, you can't handle half of what I've dealt with.
There's a reason I do the things I do, there's a reason
I am who I am
Over the years I have been bullied, judged & discriminated by many people.... But I never thought I'd recieve the same treatment from those close to me. I try everyday, I try to be perfect, to be normal, to be what everyone else expects me to be....However, I can't change who I am. I know I'm far from perfect, but I'm myself & that for me is enough
Since September 2017, I had to deal with a lot, more so than usual. Continuous hospital visits & three hospital admissions in six months. I thought after May 2018 things will get better... I was so wrong
My health in general has had a massive impact on my daily life, from repeating my second year again at university to struggling everything at once. Since I began this academic year, it's been difficult... Honestly, it feels like everyday I'm fighting a new battle. From chasing up hospital referrals/appointments to trying to manage my studies.
Living a life which is currently a continous struggle, I have good day & bad. Each day I wake up with a new goal, but sometimes it all comes crashing down. I never know when my health gets better or worse. Before at least I had some idea, now I don't
Emotionally & mentally I'm strugglng because at times I overthink a situation, I find myself feeling depressed, frustrated & mad at people. Sometimes all I want to is scream & shout, but instead I keep it together & smile because I know eventually I'll get through it

My message for people is this:
I am not perfct, but I'm myself... I don't want a constant reminder of things & the past that I cannot change. I don't want to rise to your expections because I never will...So, instead of the continous judgements...Just love me for who I am. I can be funny & cheeky, I'm a happy go person who smiles a lot because I learnt because sad & upset gets you nowhere. I may not act my age at times or you
may think I'm immature but that's fine with me because I won't change myself just for you. I love to read. Books are my happy place, my escape. I may not be update to or like current trends but that's just fine with me. I don't wear make up neither am I super girly girl & that's cool with me. My dress sense may look funny to people, but I don't care. I love movies & stories that may seem childish, so what...? It doesn't matter.
Finally....
To everyone going through any struggles or pain right now. Keep your head up & keep on smiling, you'll get through it
AND REMEMBER....
Smile, laugh & be happy. Even if you're going through really tough times. Just smile. Smile so bright
that you brighten someone's day & laugh so hard that you leave everyone wondering how keep
getting through it all!!! 😊😊