Lockdown Madness & New ideas... Daily Motivation

 

Lockdown Madness!! 

Ah. What a year 2020 has been & it's only September... Honestly I never imagined anything like this. This whole pandemic experience has been life changing as well as mentally & emotionally challenging! I've been in lockdown since mid-March & it has been one of toughest experience ever. As more of an outdoor & adventurous person to have my routine changed all of sudden was difficult to handle. Everyday I'd try & find something new to do (didn't really learn anything new). But I did start re-reading the Harry Potter series & finished reading some of my many books. Productive (I think) 

Lockdown has been the toughest on my mental & emotional health. Yes, Physically I've been more or less healthy. But I suffered more with my mental & emotional health. Having breakdowns every other week in the beginning of lockdown, panic & anxiety attacks halfway through. There was more than one time that I wanted to give up on everything. Unfortunately because how I was suffering with my mental & emotional health I was once again unable to submit my final assignments. Thought I could do them for summer assessment period. For the first time even that was impossible. So now I've deferred my studies for another few months. Damn! I was so close to graduate this year...But I learned a valid lesson, I could've given up throughout all those time that I wanted to, but I never did because I got the help I needed, reached out to family & friends. learned that it's okay to not be okay. Having an incredible support system from my therapist, family, friends & professors from university gave me the courage to keep going. During the lockdown having that kind of contact is so so important. Reach out to your loved ones or friends, let them know they're not alone. That is why I never gave up, because I had & continue to have such support & belief from all those around me. I found my courage again. 

I'm still dealing with mental & emotional health issues, but I'm so thankful that I'm no longer in that dark place, I know I have people I can reach out to. Remember so do you!

Daily Motivation

So, I have this new idea. Firstly I will be posting everyday, mostly in evenings & secondly I want to use this platform to inspire & motivate people in hopes of making a difference. How am going to do that? Well, I'm obsessed with quotes & sayings. Each day I'll upload one with my own interpretation of it... Here's an example 

Since I was born I have faced so many unimaginable challenges, most of which I would never wish for anyone to face. From constant hospital visits, operations to new diagnosis every time. Over the years it had a massive massive impact on my mental health as well as emotional & I never realised till halfway through college. That was when I opened my eyes & told myself that I faced so much including bullying & discrimination, yet I am still here today because I am stronger than I think! I am strong, despite all that I go through I see it as an opportunity to be stronger than yesterday! 💜

Remember life can whatever it wants at you! But you are stronger than you think & can face anything! 💜

Let me know what you all think & obviously I'll try to write more than that!...😊😊

A Trip Down Memory Lane...

Goodbye...? Oh no, please. Can't we go back to page one & do it all over again?

Nostalgia. That is what I'm feeling since yesterday when I realised that on 24th May 2012 was when I officially left Secondary School....

A lot has happened since then, the last 8 years have certainly been full of ups and downs, challenges, tears and happiness. This year however is also special for me as I'm graduating from university in September...

I'm asking myself where has the time gone? It flew by! 

Leaving Kelmscott Secondary School felt like leaving a home, where everyone I know was family to me, I know my journey for the 5 years I was there wasn't an easy one, but it made me into the I am today & there are just too many people to thank, even then I don't think thank you would be enough. I have endured a lot during my time at Kelmscott, was bullied, picked on & judged and if you ask me whether I moved on, the answer is yes and I have also forgiven those responsible. 

On the flip side I made a fantastic friend for life, whom I'm blessed to call my sister today, I treasure the conversations I used to have with teachers & to this day respect & miss every SINGLE staff member at Kelmscott. Simply because they not only taught me life lessons or believed in me. 

But it was the incredible TEACHERS who at that time pulled me out of the darkness especially my FORM TUTUORS & HEAD OF YEAR, who were my supporting pillars and understood what I was going through. I was brought up to respect whomever I meet, but as I grew up I realised respect is EARNED not given. Often during my time at kelmscott I was actually known as 'teachers pet' which yes upset me, but at the same time it didn't make a difference because it was THEM who listened, supported me academically and personally. I respect them to this day because of the respect they gave me! I firmly believe that teachers are like your parents, they know you and know how to support you through whatever life throws at you... But, one of the biggest & main reason is that every SINGLE teacher I met at Kelmscott ACCEPTED me for who I am, treated me as an EQUAL & give me opportunities to flourish & reach my potential. I may not have been a student rep, prefect or head girl (which would've been amazing), but I learned the value of FRIENDSHIP, RESPECT & ACCEPTENCE. Acceptance was an eye opener for me because I accepted myself as I AM! Accepted that I am NOT different to everyone, I do have complex health issues, but most importantly accepted that I can still thrive as anyone else would, regardless of how long it takes! 

My four years at Leyton Sixth Form College gave me a voice, the confidence to speak out whenever I felt something wasn't working for me or I was struggling. I had a blast! Granted doing the same course for years kinda lost its appeal (repetitive information put me to sleep!) 

I wasn't badly bullied and again I forgave those responsible, but I certainly met incredible friend whom today I love, respect & trust! They are my rock alongside my secondary school friend!

Yet again I met wonderful teachers whom I respect & miss to this day! The conversations I had with each teacher are those that I still remember. I can honestly say that there was not one person who didn't accept me or treated me equally! Because ALL of them accepted me, gave me opportunities & supported me during my darkest times. My third year at college comes to mind when I had my first mental breakdown, was ill most of the year & shut myself off from everyone around me. it was my FORM TUTOR who noticed I was in a bad place, not only her but also the rest of the teachers. It was that year I was persuaded to start counselling & have to say it was what I needed! THANK YOU doesn't seem enough for every SINGLE staff member at LSC...

During my time at Leyton Sixth Form I flourished not only academically, but also personally. I came out my shell, gained more and more confidence as the years went. Was appointed as student rep, library ambassador & curriculum ambassador! I literally thoroughly loved me time at LSC & will never forget the years & the good times I had! Who would've thought I would receive QMUL awards 2 times! I was honoured to receive a student award at the end of my time at LSC! 

Never did I imagine I'll be a student at one of London's top university! Being accepted at University College London has been my biggest achievement yet! I have many others to name!! I can wholeheartedly say that I enjoyed my journey at UCL Institute of Education over the last 4 years! It started out great, had a peaceful first year before the storm hit in summer 2017 & from that point on everything changed.... 

I won't lie I have met some great people on my course, but as an insecure person I never really felt as though I FIT in, even though BA Education Studies is a fantastic & interesting degree but connecting those on my course was DIFFICULT! So I kinda failed at the making friends at university, not exactly the person to join societies either (that's just me!) But that is not to say I was a COMPLETE loner! No! Eventually I made some really good friends & I'm connecting with people! 

I may not have had much luck making friends, but I have met wonderful professors who respected me, treated me as an adult, offered me academic & personal advise, gave me opportunities to speak out & most importantly supported me through the dark times since September 2017. I admit that summer 2018 I was deciding on DROPPING OUT of university as I was in a bad place physically & mentally, yet it was the professors who provided ALTERNATIVES for me, listened to my concerns &gave me full support to get through everything. I can easily say that the level of support I've received is still going as my struggles are not over, but I have feeling I WILL graduate in September. Again THANK YOU doesn't seem enough! 

Thank you doesn't seem enough for ALL the AMAZING, WONDERFUL, INCREDIBLE & INSPIRING teachers I've had since my time at secondary school. They weren't just my teachers, they were my MENTORS! No words can describe the respect I have for them or how much they've changed my life! 

TEACHERS & PROFESSORS 

   I would thank you from the bottom of my heart, but you for, my heart has no bottom!

Mental Health Awareness

It's okay to not be okay...

I know that Mental Health Awareness Week has just passed, but I've been dealing with personal issues...

As a kid and during my teen years I never really paid attention to mental heath as much as I should've, it all started during my third year at college & since then I have been more aware about my mental health and how it impacts my life. Granted I never really paid close attention to the various signs until about 3 years go. That being said I'm still learning, I'm on journey that is one of the difficult ones in my life, it has opened my eyes to whole new world. 

Mental health. it sounds like another term, but if you dig deep there's a whole new meaning.... Every single person is suffering from anxiety, depressing, stress and so on. Often you don't realise it, why? Because it's not something you can SEE! Those suffering find ways to find ways to hide their issues for reasons, the common one being no one would understand. That is one that I relate to because not many  people know I suffer with mental heath. I never recognised the signs at first either, but during my third year at college I had my first ever mental breakdown, everything just got too much, but I tried to hide that fact I was suffering due to fear and judgment. I learned a valid lesson from that. DON'T HIDE! SPEAK OUT, LET PEOPLE KNOW YOU ARE SUFFERING, GET THE RIGHT SUPPORT YOU NEED! 

Eventually I did start counselling & honestly it changed my life, it pulled me out of the darkness, I was able to uncover many missing pieces of my behaviour and attitude towards a lot of what I face in my life. I guess, in other words I had a lot trauma from my childhood and teen years which I just pushed down & never spoke about.... That's another lesson I learnt, yes speaking to someone about your life & everything you've been through is NEVER EASY! Especially to a complete stranger you don't know or trust, but I can honestly say that first all it gets easy, you start slow, get to know the person & trust them. Secondly, speaking to a complete stranger is often a better option than speaking to a family member or friend. You avoid judgemental remarks and people pitying you or in my case telling you that it's all in your head and none of what you are through is real....

Now years later I'm working with CBT therapist & I have been since November last year. CBT has helped me immensely! Whilst doing that I speak frequently and openly with my close friends and professors at university whenever I'm struggling

Over the years and I'm learning to have a better understanding about my mental health and the importance of never suffering alone! I'm not going to lie, there's so much I have yet to face because I kept pushing away all my emotions out of fear. Yet, since 2017 I have faced more than I imagined in terms of mental health issues and throughout it out I picked up a few tips:

- NEVER SUFFER ALONE 

- TALKING ABOUT IT HELPS 

- DON'T BE AFRAID TO ASK FOR HELP OR TELL SOMEONE YOU ARE STRUGGLING 

- LET GO OF ALL YOUR EMOTIONS, DON'T KEEP PUSHING THEM AWAY (you'll feel a lot better) 

- WHENEVER YOU GOING THROUGH TOUGH TIMES, SPEAK TO THOSE YOU TRUST (Family, friends, teachers, therapists or even nurses) 

- YOU DON'T ALWAYS HAVE TO PUT ON A BRAVE FACE

- MOST IMPORTANTLY, LET GO OF ALL THE THINGS YOU HAVE NO CONTROL OVER OR CANNOT CHANGE (you will have less to worry about)

Have to say, most of these I don't follow often, I'm still learning to! But honestly for me what really helps is speaking to people, particularly my close friends, teachers & my therapist. I won't say family because of a simple reason that they do not understand, no matter how many times I've explained.... 

I suffer with anxiety and depression. I have panic attacks, I'm someone who over worriers a lot! I stress about little things, I often take comments about me seriously. All these combined are what makes me an insecure person, I have many many insecurities. My self-belief has been shattered more times than I can count. There's no lie I seek reassurance from people around me, but at the end of the day it helps me build my confidence, but often I'm guilty of continuously bugging people, even though I shouldn't! 

See, mental health is not something you can work through in day, week, month or even a year. There may be times that you may be able to work through it within a certain length of time, but if you are like me who has experienced trauma and continues to, then there's a chance you be dealing with mental health issues for a very long time! I used to be ashamed of them & I still am. Hence why not many people are aware of my anxiety or depression. But do you know what? I won't be ashamed! Having anxiety or depression, dealing with a variety of mental health issues DOES NOT MAKE ME A DIFFERENT PERSON, NEITHER DOES IT MEAN THAT I'M LOOSING MY MIND!! I suffer with medical conditions which are chronic & lifelong, I won't be ashamed of having anxiety and or depression, neither will I be ashamed of having insecurities! 

I'm gradually learning to not hide my emotions. Even with all the support I have I still have a long way to go. My journey isn't over, it has just begun and I'm willing to keep going! One of the most important lessons I learned over the year is that my mental health is as important as my medical health issues! 

Remember! 

•  Mental Health is as IMPORTANT as your physical, medical or any health issue!
•  ASK FOR HELP! Don't be afraid there are a variety of people you can reach out to 
•  NEVER hide your emotions, it'll just overwhelm you!
•  Do things you LOVE! Never let someone tell you to change your ways, if it makes you happy then keep doing what you love. Read a book, watch movies that make you laugh
•  NEVER let your life overtake you, remember to give yourself breaks. Looking after yourself & ensuring you are healthy not only physically, but also MENTALLY & EMOTIONALLY is  far IMPORTANT than your work, studies or other commitments. All of which I believe can re-do or get back. But not your health!
•  NEVER be ashamed of having mental health issues, it doesn't make you any less of you person! It actually makes you a STRONGER & BRAVER person! 
  

It's my Birthday!! (24)

Happy 24th Birthday to Meeeeee 🎂🎂🎂🎉🎉🎉

You'd think as I get older I wouldn't be as excited but no. This day is always special to me, no matter how old I get 😊😊

Looking back this year has gone by so fast, it feels like only yesterday I was 23. Where has the time gone!?

It has been a wild ride since last year, I ended up in hospital on 30th April 2019 for 2 weeks, spent my summer working on my late summer assignments & finally sat my Policy & Politics in Education exam (I passed everything!!) 

In September 2019 I began my final year at university & it has been a brilliant last year 

One of the biggest challenges I faced over the year was dealing with my mental health issues & I'm so so grateful for the support I've received from my family, friends & from the university that I can confidently say that I'm doing a lot better than I was a year ago. It's a slow progress overcoming everything, but I will 😊

It has certainly been a wild ride & never did I ever imagine to be where I am today, 24 & finally graduating from university with an undergraduate degree, it's phenomenal!!

I'm taking this chance to say a massive massive thank you to my family, my friends & everyone from university who has supported me through everything, who made me smile during the bad times & mostly important who gave me hope for the future. Thank you all, you incredible people!!

Here's to the next chapter of my life!! ❷❹🎂🎂🎉🎉💜💜

The last four years has changed me as a person, I learnt more about myself as I went to university & now looking back those years I'm grateful for because I learnt to let go of the things I cannot control, learnt to enjoy my life, ask for help, never feel guilty about using the support I've been given & most important I learnt to look after my mental health. Speak out when I'm struggling & not hold back. I made new friends at my time at university & met people who have shaped my life. Looking back now, I went from a shy, self-conscious girl to a young confident woman who yes still has many insecurities but thanks to my amazing, wonderful & special friends well as the professors at university not to mention my family who have been with me on this journey & lifted me up when I lost hope. 

Today maybe another day, but it is special to me & no matter how old I may get my personality will never change. 

I am someone who is willing to help out whenever I can 

I am kind-hearted person, someone who never wants to hurt anyone 

A lot of times I may act childish or often people think I'm not mature (I am!!)

I am a book nerd (even I take forever to read a book) 

My love for Harry Potter will never end (enough with the complaints!)

I love the Doctor Who universe, it's fantastic & The Sarah Jane Adventures will always be favourite show. Now I'm also adding Torchwood to that list (it's phenomenal!)

Age for me is just a number

I'll never change for anyone because I'm enjoying my life as I'm living it & if someone doesn't like that, they can leave. 

Until you step into my shoes & go through everything that I have, don't judge me

I am imperfect, I have flaws, I make mistakes. But do you know what? All my qualities, my quirks make me stand out & I love it! I love myself, I'm enjoying life & I'm happy!! 💜💜

Remembering Elisabeth Sladen

''Have you met Miss Smith? She's my best friend'' -The Doctor

Everyone needs a role model & an inspiration in their life. Yes I have had the pleasure of meeting & knowing some brilliant & amazing woman over the years and I have read books by phenomenal authors such as J.K.Rowling

Yet, my TV role model from my teen years to this day is Elisabeth Clara Heath Sladen 

I remember my first memory of watching Lis on TV. I was around 12 or 13 & whilst flicking through the channels I found The Sarah Jane Adventures. If I'm correct it was the episode; Temptation of Sarah Jane Smith, one of the moving episode throughout the series. From that point onwards I fell in love with the show & it was the perfect time for me because I was going through tough times at school & to back home to watch SJA on TV was just my highlight of the week. Lis's performance captured me from that time I was flicking through channels...

Sarah Jane Smith was a massive part of my childhood, namely teen years & growing up Lis was my role model. To this day she's my inspiration & I miss her dearly. My introduction to the world of Doctor Who was through The Sarah Jane Adventures & I have watched every episode of Classic Who & new Who with Lis 

Elisabeth's portrayal of Sarah Jane Smith captured & impacted generations of children & adults alike, and Elisabeth herself had been described as a fiercely kind & cherished woman by her fellow cast 

A few of my favourite lines from Miss Smith...

''Life on earth can be an adventure too... You just need to know where to look!'' 

''I don't care what people think of me. Never have'' 

''The universe has to move forward. Pain and loss, the define us as much as happiness or love. whether it's a world or a relationship, everything has it's time. And everything ends''

''I wouldn't have missed it for the world!''

''Bye, Doctor. You know, travel really does broaden the mind''

''Some things are worth getting your heart broken for''

''I'm a journalist, Sarah Jane Smith''

''Call me old girl again and I'll spit in your eye''

''Don't forget me''

''Now just wait a minute. There's nothing 'only' about being a girl. Your Majesty''

''I learned a long time ago that, if you're missing somebody, just look up at the night sky. Whoever it is, wherever they are, chances are they're looking at the stars just like you. Sometimes for all of its size the universe isn't such a big place after all'' 

Farewell Sarah Jane Smith! 

Never Forgotten ❤❤

Hello!! I'm back!

A massive hello to all my readers! I sincerely hope you are all staying home & staying safe during these crazy times! 

Since new year I have been dealing with a lot personal issues, hospital appointments & university assignments. Actually never imagined this is how I would complete my final year at university. Bizarre !! 

I've been home over a month now & honestly keeping myself occupied with reading is just the best idea ever! Either that or just binge watching 

From today I will try & post every week or so, no promises since I'm the middle of working on my dissertation which I have to say is going pretty well, apart from the increasing number of drafts I'm confident that this piece of work will be my best by far 😃

Stay safe!

Happy New Year!! Welcome 2020!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Ok... I know I'm late, its nearly end of January but oh well...

Another year has gone.... 😊😊😊

2019 was a challenging year, more so than last year 🙂

Right from the start, this was not a calm year, but the opposite. With increasing outpatient appointments, leading to actually being admitted to the hospital at the end of April.

One of the biggest challenges of this year was my mental health. To say that someone has recovered from everything they have faced is a lie & I realized that this year.

Throughout the struggle, I managed to complete my 2nd-year repeat at uni, with complete late summer assessments plus the exam I missed last year & passing everything despite struggling to focus on the tasks.

So much has happened this year that it feels everything is jumbled up mess, yet a few highlights for me would be;

August 2019: Finished all late summer assessments & passing every single one
October 2019: Starting my final year at university
November 16th: Getting a part-time job at a tuition centre

2019 has been the most challenging year for me in every aspect & I don't think I would've gotten through everything without the support from my family, friends & teachers ❤️❤️

It's easier to give up through tough times, but harder to carry on. I chose to carry on & surprised myself along the way 😃😃

Tomorrow's the start of another year. Page 1 of 365 days. I'll make it a good one 🙂🙂

Happy New Year Everyone! 

Literacy Life....

Once you learn to read, you will be forever free

Currently reading this amazing book! Loving it so far 

Sometimes I wish I owned a library, but hey... This is close enough 

This is often how I am whilst working on academic stuff...Often I end up multi-tasking because of numerous distractions 

I usually prefer reading a book & highlighting key info helps me remember it!! 

My book collection & yes I do read them!! 

My academic collection...It's fascinating to read some of these books

Blogging online is new experience for me & I find it intriguing

  

I loose count of how many times a year I visit hospitals, signs like these I have memorised  

World Teachers' Day 2019

A teacher is one who helps others & influences lives forever... 

Everyone has a hero or an inspirational figure, for me; that's my teachers. Every teacher I've met since I've been in education have influenced me in impossible ways & shaped me into who I am today

As a child I wanted to be a teacher. And, growing up I've seen the work they do, met amazing, hard-working, inspirational teachers who in my book are phenomenal!!

Since the start of secondary school every teacher I met, I had high respect for & yh often I got asked why (still it happens!) Simply because over time I realised teacher's went above & beyond to inspire their students, I was one them. As someone with SEN & learning difficulties I always admired & was super grateful for the support I was given. 

I've just started my final year at UCL & looking back, not in a million years did I ever imagined to be where I am today... My sincere gratitude goes out to all the teachers who not only believed in me, but also pushed me out my comfort zone, gave me opportunities to discover more about myself & create an identity for myself. My time in education would never have been the same if it wasn't for the incredible, inspiring teachers I've met along the way, because of each of them I got to where I am today

On #WorldTeachersDay I'd like to give a massive shout out & say a massive massive thank you to the teachers who have shaped my life.

From secondary school till now at university, I have met amazing & inspirational teachers who continue to inspire, guide & teach me life-lessons I'll never forget

Thank you all for believing in me & pushing me to work beyond my capabilities

Thank you for guiding me when I felt lost

Thank you for your constant & continuous support

Happy #WorldTeachersDay !!

Books books & more books!

Books give me an escape from reality, even if it's only for a few minutes...

Since I was child books were my friends. From an early I used to love looking at pictures in kids' books & as I grew older, so did my love for reading. It's no secret that I'm a slow reader, but nonetheless I am as passionate about reading as I am about food, if not more 😀 

Over the books have helped me in ways that unimaginable & since I was at secondary school reading has given me hope, laughter & is a massive massive distraction from everything I face

Often people find reading boring or pointless (unless it's neccessary for them to read for an assignment), but I find it relaxing & calm 😊

Fav authors:

I honestly would read a good & interesting book by any author, BUT! My top three authors are;

J.K.Rowling (Harry Potter & Fantastic Beasts)

Jacqueline Wilson (Tracy Beaker & others) 

Elisabeth Sladen (Autobiography) 

Genres 

Fiction: Childrens, teenage/young adult, sci-fi & fantasy 

Non-Fiction: Autobiography, biography , education, Special Education Needs & Disability

My book collection keeps getting bigger & bigger! I know....I would love to have a whole library, it'd be so AWESOME!! 😁😁

''You can't buy happiness, but you can buy books & that's kind of the same thing" 

REMEMBER!! 

• You can read anywhere at anytime! 

• Read whatever you like, from newspapers, magazines to amazing books! 

• Go visit school or local libraries for inspiration...If not, go to a book store 

"I do believe something very magical can happen when you open a book" -J.K.Rowling

"We loose ourselves in books & we find ourselves there too"

"Books are the most loyal & trusted friends you can have" 

"These books are my friends, my companions. They make me laugh & cry & find meaning in life" 

This Is Me...

I'm not perfect... But I'm always myself

Don't judge me, you can't handle half of what I've dealt with. 

There's a reason I do the things I do, there's a reason 

I am who I am

Over the years I have been bullied, judged & discriminated by many people.... But I never thought I'd recieve the same treatment from those close to me. I try everyday, I try to be perfect, to be normal, to be what everyone else expects me to be....However, I can't change who I am. I know I'm far from perfect, but I'm myself & that for me is enough

Since September 2017, I had to deal with a lot, more so than usual. Continuous hospital visits & three hospital admissions in six months. I thought after May 2018 things will get better... I was so wrong

My health in general has had a massive impact on my daily life, from repeating my second year again at university to struggling everything at once. Since I began this academic year, it's been difficult... Honestly, it feels like everyday I'm fighting a new battle. From chasing up hospital referrals/appointments to trying to manage my studies. 

Living a life which is currently a continous struggle, I have good day & bad. Each day I wake up with  a new goal, but sometimes it all comes crashing down. I never know when my health gets better or worse. Before at least I had some idea, now I don't 

Emotionally & mentally I'm strugglng because at times I overthink a situation, I find myself feeling depressed, frustrated & mad at people. Sometimes all I want to is scream & shout, but instead I keep it together & smile because I know eventually I'll get through it

My message for people is this: 

I am not perfct, but I'm myself... I don't want a constant reminder of things & the past that I cannot change. I don't want to rise to your expections because I never will...So, instead of the continous judgements...Just love me for who I am. I can be funny & cheeky, I'm a happy go person who smiles a lot because I learnt because sad & upset gets you nowhere. I may not act my age at times or you
may think I'm immature but that's fine with me because I won't change myself just for you. I love to read. Books are my happy place, my escape. I may not be update to or like current trends but that's just fine with me. I don't wear make up neither am I super girly girl & that's cool with me. My dress sense may look funny to people, but I don't care. I love movies & stories that may seem childish, so what...? It doesn't matter. 

Finally....

To everyone going through any struggles or pain right now. Keep your head up & keep on smiling, you'll get through it

AND REMEMBER....

Smile, laugh & be happy. Even if you're going through really tough times. Just smile. Smile so bright

that you brighten someone's day & laugh so hard that you leave everyone wondering how keep

getting through it all!!! 😊😊

Give up or Keep going?

Sometimes I feel like giving up 

But I just can't

It isn't in blood 

There isn't one person that hasn't faced obstacles or hasn't been in situations where they wanted to give up... Let me tell you, in life you'll meet people who are facing challenges that nobody knows about & I'm no different

Some people may call me stubborn or crazy, because there have been times when I've been asked 'how comes you haven't given up after everything?' or 'how do you keep going?' My only response that no matter how times I've wanted to give up because it was an easier option, it just isn't me...For me, giving up is like letting go everything I've done or achieved 

I have lost count how times I've came close to giving up, yet something keeps me going...Wanna know what? My family, friends & people who believe in me when I lose belief in myself

Most importantly, I want to prove to myself & those who think I can't achieve anything wrong...I have kept going & overcoming a number of struggles, challening obstacles & at times I felt like life is pulling me backwards...But still I keep going !

Giving up is easy, but holding on during the hardest times in life is so much more difficult 

Remember!

- You are not alone! Keep going, at the end of the day it'll be worth it

- Never let anyone tell you what you can or can't do

- BELIEVE IN YOURSELF

😃😃

Been a while!

       A crazy ride....

A warm hello to all my readers! 

I'm back! Since my birthday post, a lot has happened & it feels like the last few months I've been on a rollercoaster ride 😛

See it all started with my health getting worse to point where I spent two weeks in hospital & since I got discharged I've been going for a lot of outpatient appointments (I'm offically exhausted from hospital visits)

Along with that I have also been dealing with mental health issues & emotionally last few months I've been a mess 

Aside from all that I'm also juggling university work. I had a lot of outstanding assignments & I have an exam in two weeks 😱

I'm managing my work a lot better than last year & I am so closed to completing my summer assignments.... 

See, I'm on a crazy ride... 😀

Buuuut, I'm back now & I'll be updating regularly 😆😆